Hurt people don’t HAVE to hurt people.

So, somewhat recently, I went through a particularly horrific breakup. To be honest, this post is less about the breakup and more about me dealing with the backlash of it. Rumors were flying, my name and reputation were dragged through the mud, my side wasn’t being told because I figured it didn’t matter anyway. All…

Me First.

  Last year, I passed out and was hospitalized due to chronic exhaustion and depression (I’m super okay now tho so don’t worry lol). Not a lot of people know that but now you guys do so don’t be weird about it. What it really boiled down to was me putting literally everything and everyone…

i love me, i love me not.

“He could’ve done better.” Words from the sisters of my significant other that rung like church bells in my ears. “He could’ve done better.” And just like that, I went from a confident self-assured 21 year old woman back to a self-loathing teenager who didn’t know what it meant to love herself. I’ve been dealing…

Self Harm

I’m realizing that old wounds will always hurt if I keep picking at them. In a biology/chemistry seminar I attended, the speaker said something that really struck home with me. “You can’t break old habits. You can only make new ones to override the old ones.” That being said, I’m still trying to figure out…

Living With Insecurities

Insecurities. We all have them on some level. Things that make us basically feel some type of way. Lately my insecurities have been affecting me more so than usual. Like a bad cold that keeps spreading, causing those closest to me to want to keep their distance. Often times we tend to let our insecurities…

Updates.

  Today, I cried. For the first time in months, I let myself feel for a second and it was like everything I’ve felt for maybe the passed year came bursting through my tear ducts all at once. Update on my life: It’s my senior year of college and I’m not graduating. Not because I…

The Follow Through

I think a lot of us have goals, dreams, and aspirations. A lot of us have thought about where we wanna be in life. If you’re anything like me you might find yourself daydreaming about a reality that may never come because as much of a planner you may be, your follow through, well…sucks. I…

The Art Of Being Alone

I didn’t always like my own company growing up. I found myself rather boring to be honest and yet, the more I hated being alone, the lonelierĀ I was. I wasn’t a friendly child. I kept to myself and my books, did my work, went home, went back to school; it was an endlessly mundane cycle….

The Pursuit of Happiness

  Clearly I’m terrible at this blogging thing because it’s probably been over two months since my last post but I promise I have a good excuse. This semester was, for lack of a better word, trash. I was in the hospital twice due to chronic migraines, I lost a lot of weight, my grades…

You Do What You Want When You POPPIN’

Lately it’s been hitting me that I’m 20 years old and I’m technically old enough to do what I want, when I want, where I want, and with who I want. Coming from a strict Haitian household, that’s a pretty major revelation. I have literally just realized that I’m a grown up now. I didn’t…

Relationships SUCK

It’s been awhile, I know. I’ve been trying to (and failing to) get my life together with school but I’m back now! So Valentine’s Day is over and the air of lovey dovey-ness has finally passed. I know what you’re thinking. “But aren’t YOU in a relationship?” Yes. Yes I am. While my valentine’s day…

Don’t Fall In Love With PotentialĀ 

I’m a Twitter-holic so obviously I’m probably on Twitter if I’m not asleep. The other day, one of the people I follow said something that stuck out to me. “Don’t fall in love with potential.”  Whoa. That one statement resonated in me in a way that was quite frankly, uncomfortable. I realize I have a…